Freedom and Joy again!

This past week, I (Stefan) had a God encounter that was very significant to me.  Since I'm the one mostly involved at Succat Hallel and Samantha is unable to fully participate in any watches with me at this moment and season of our lives, I've been having some difficulty.  I was fully engaged in the watches, and was even able to feel the move of the Spirit on my times during the sets, but something was not fully there.  Then, last Tuesday night, God showed me how I've avoided fully enjoying my time in His presence.  I'd come to think that somehow, it was unfair if I enjoyed my watches and Samantha didn't have the same experience while watching that kids, or the opposite of my experience.  I had this feeling like, it was rude and insensitive of me to come home all bubbly when her day had not gone that well.  The Lord was so good to expose that lie.  Then as the lie was broken off, I was able to fully embrace the part of enjoying the watches I participate in.  I realized that me enjoying myself fully, would release a breakthrough over the challenges at home as well.  The next morning, I found myself significantly more energetic when I woke up, and the watch that I participated in that afternoon was completely different.  It was alive in every way, and I knew I had fun, because as they say, "time flies when you're having fun" :-)  God took me to a new place in the revelation of the ecstatic pleasure of His presence.  I can truly say, oh, the joy of His presence.  There's nothing else like it.  Oh, the Joy of knowing Him and being known by Him.